It's the first Wednesday of the month time for IWSG where we writers help each other deal with our insecurities. Thanks to Ninja Captain, Alex Cavanaugh, for providing writer's a safe and supportive format to speak openly, and without fear, about the insecurities that come with the craft of writing.
In the mid-nineties there was a cartoon called Pinky and the Brain that featured two genetically enhanced laboratory mice who lived in a cage in the Acme Labs research facility. In each episode, Brain devises a new plan to take over the world, which ultimately ends in failure, due to the ridiculousness of Brain's plan or Pinky's stupidity. Each episode began with the following dialogue:
Pinky: "Gee, Brain, what do you want to do tonight?"
The Brain: "The same thing we do every night, Pinky—try to take over the world!"
After spending much more time than I care to calculate on writing and revising, and revising, and revising, this manuscript, I am beginning to feel a lot like The Brain. Every morning I sit down and ask myself, "What are you going to do today, Jenn?" and I answer, "Try and finish my story."
I only hope that that I'm not living in a research facility and taking part in a large experiment on the resilience of writers and revisions. I hope that I actually can succeed with my plan to finish my story. I need to know that this is not all a hopeless folly. Will these revisions ever come to an end? Is there a plan where I successfully finish this novel, acquire an agent and get it published? I don't need to believe that I can take over the world, just finish this manuscript. But, until then, I will continue to sit at my desk and tell myself, today, I will finish this manuscript.
However, I won't be telling myself that today, because I got called in for jury duty and will have to contemplate, finished manuscripts, and world domination another day.
But please don't let my absence stop you from visiting the other writers in the link below and support them in their insecurities.