Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Insecure Writer's & Andrew's Anthology

I know today is the first Wednesday of the month and time for the monthly IWSG post, but please allow me to share something with you before I share my insecurity.

Nick Wilford's Overcoming Adversity anthology is available for purchase. I hope you'll get yourself a copy and tell all your friends about it, too. Not only is there some wonderful content in this book, it is part of a fundraising effort to send his stepson, Andrew McNaughton, to a specialist college in England.

Blurb: A collection of seventy moving and uplifting original pieces - real life, flash fiction, and poetry - about battling against the odds and the ultimate triumph of the human spirit. The anthology is currently available in e-book format. Paperback coming soon.

Editor Bio: Nick Wilford is a writer and stay-at-home dad. Once a journalist, he now makes use of those rare times when the house is quiet to explore the realms of fiction. When not writing he can usually be found spending time with his family or cleaning something. He has four short stories published in Writer’s Muse magazine. Nick is also co-running a campaign to get a dedicated specialist college built in Scotland. Visit him HERE

First Wed of Every MonthOn to IWSG business... as with most pre-published writers, my insecurities run the gamut from month to month. From such simple ones as, I'm not sure if this chapter is working, to major ones like Why am I doing this? I'm not a writer. I'll never be a writer. I can't even figure out where to put a comma! 

Okay, the comma part is true but on most days I think I am supposed to be a writer. Even those days when I feel more like, Gustave Flaubert, spending the morning putting in comma's and the afternoon removing them, than the Strunk and White master, E.B. White. I always feel like I'm supposed to write, I'm just not sure I'll ever make it through the door to the other side.

This brings me to this month’s worrisome thought. It has to do with horror, yes, my personal feeling of horror, and the 1982 horror film, Poltergeist. These past few weeks I've felt a lot like Diane in the hallway scene of the movie. Diane is running toward the bedroom trying to free her babies, but can't make it to the door because it's constantly moving away from her. I, like Diane, feel this urgent need to save my babies; to get that door open and rescue them from the monster holding them captive. But there is this ever present Poltergeist (I gave mine a name: Revision) that is fighting me at every turn. Throwing around commas and plot changes. Making the characters say things they never would; mucking up my work so that the wonderful pages written the night before are a chaotic mess in the dawn of the new day.

It seems like I've been in this state forever! Maybe I have been in this state forever or maybe it's the Poltergeist making me think I have. I know the Poltergeist can be beaten. I've seen the end of the movie and watched I've books go from print to published. I'm just wondering how to keep that darn door from constantly moving out of my grasp. Maybe it's time for me to call in the Ghostbusters.


Annalisa Crawford said...

For me, the revisions and plot changes are part of the original time scale, so instead of feeling like the doors are constantly moving away from me, I know I'm actually no where near them to start with. Perhaps you just have to schedule in a couple of rewrites into your initial time scale? And remember, those doors will be static one day, and you'll be walking through them!!

Elise Fallson said...

I feel the same way about my edits right now. It seems like I'll never reach the end of it, but we just have to keep going because eventually, we will get there. Just keep believing!! (:

Julie Luek said...

The scene of the door moving ever farther away made me chuckle. It's a great visual for how it feels sometimes, isn't it? But we keep running towards the goal!

Scribbles From Jenn said...

Annalisa, I like the way you think! I long for the day of static doors.

Elise, as a Journey fan, I should know to don't stop believing .

Julie, yes, I'll take Dory's (from Finding Nemo) advice and just keep swimming.

Melissa said...

If Ghostbusters = Betareaders, then yes. Maybe what you need is some reassurance. And as far as commas go, don't sweat it. That's what line-by-line critters and editors are for. ;)

jaybird said...

Can I tell you, I'm such a chicken I'm scared to even watch the clip. Someone like me can't watch scary movies. My imagination is too much and I won't sleep tonight, playing that scene over and over again in my head.

Jenn, you keep on rolling, and doing what your doing!! Don't give up and just keep on going. Everyone has days of doubt and insecurities. But then, those good days come and wash all of those insecurites away!!

shelly said...

Great post! And I got the copy of that book yesterday.

Hugs and chocolate,

Empty Nest Insider said...

I like what you wrote about commas, as I tend to over compensate with them. Great analogy about revisions, and I'm sure that you'll take them head on.


Al Diaz said...

Poltergeist was one movie that really freaked me out on its time. I know what you mean. Sometimes I experience the same thing. Just hang in there and don't quit trying.

nutschell said...

I can so relate. I'm now making revision notes on a book I've edited 8 times already.

Scribbles From Jenn said...

Melissa, thanks. I need to find some of those line-by-line critters :D

Jaybird, I have my chicken moments too. I discovered them while looking for this clip.

Shelly, thanks for supporting Nick and Andrew!

Empty Nest, thanks for the vote of confidence. I'm tackling them one page at at time.

Al, hanging on...

Scribbles From Jenn said...

Nutschell, I stopped counting edits. It's too depressing. However, I am hopeful that we will make it to that door!

Suzanne Furness said...

Why does editing seem never ending! Like a puppy chasing it's tail!

Got my copy of Nicks anthology and looking forward to checking out the entries.

Yvonne at Poetry from the Heart said...

Thanks for your comment, much appreciated. Enjoyed reading your post but skipped the video.


Nicole said...

Editing can be tricky indeed! I think it helps to get some time away and some perspective.

Belle said...

I bought "Overcoming Adversity" and I'm enjoying it very much.

Alex J. Cavanaugh said...

Do you have critique partners who might be able to help? At least get you moving toward that door again.

Stina Lindenblatt said...

Yes yes yes about the commas. I keep changing my mind were to put them and if they're necessary. Even though I've memorized the rule book on them, I still mess them up. :P

Scribbles From Jenn said...

Suzanne, I don't know but I am feeling a lot like a puppy these days.

Yvonne, scary videos are completely optional.

Nicole, very true. Took the time away, now I'm back at it.

Belle, glad you're supporting Nick and Andrew.

Alex, yes, I have wonderful critique partners, who I appreciate very much, even if they are why I'm doing all this work ;p

Stina, nice to hear from a fellow comma phobic.

Lexa Cain said...

I call them gremlins. I work, work, work all night writing gems upon the page. But when I look the next day, I find gremlins have gone in and replaced the gems with lumps of coal. Argh! I didn't really write that, did I?
Ah, well. There's always tomorrow.
Good luck! :-)

Kyra Lennon said...

*hugs* I completely understand what you mean! But don't stop trying, because you will make it through the door!

Cynthia said...

Revisions can be a pain, but just take it one day at a time. Remind yourself that you are in control of your manuscript's destiny and when it gets overwhelming, you can take a step back and do something else for a little while just to clear your head.

Sherry Ellis said...

Great post! And I got Nick's book yesterday. It's been so nice to see it all over the blogosphere.

Kirsten said...

Wow, your post nailed exactly how I feel! Right down to the commas.
It helped me to compare where I'm at with the draft now to where I started with it. There was actually improvement! So even though I'm not where I want to be with it yet, I'm closer. It's like climbing a really big mountain: the top still seems far away, but I can see that I've cleared the valley.

Tyrean Martinson said...

Who you gonna call? Ghostbusters!

You are a writer! You can make it through the revision maze!

michelle said...

Just keep going Jen! You'll get there!
I tend to get carried away with the ellipsis! I always have the urge to just... well, you understand what I mean?

Scribbles From Jenn said...

Lexa, yes, there is always tomorrow :D

Kyra, thanks for the encouragement.

Cynthia, I like your one day at a time mentality.

Sherry, we are all rooting for Nick and Andrew. Thanks for the support.

Kirsten, I use the mountain/valley analogy often. It brings it all into perspective.

Thanks Tyrean, it's definitely a maze!

Thanks for the laugh Michelle. You are the first person I've heard about getting carried away with ellipsis :D

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