|Illustration by Lewis Mirrett|
When I think of books I fell in love with, and wanted to read again and again, I realize it is because they ooze Sprezzatura. Evey word on the page is exactly where it belongs. Each character fits perfectly with the other characters. I never read a sentence or paragraph and ask, "Why is that there?" Page after page I am lost deep in the author's world. Immersed in the character's lives, thoughts, and experiences. I do not want the story to end; I want to remain a part of their world. It is at that moment my censor speaks up loud and clear, "You'll never do that."
When I look over at my mound of revisions, I am inclined to agree with him. He is after all, big, green, and 100% correct; at the moment. As I brood over whose voice to believe, mine or the censors, I remind myself of a quote from award winning children's author Lisa Yee, "I am not a better writer now, than I was before. I am just a more confident one." What great insight for all artrists. Although we do grow and develop our craft, over time what we actually build is confidence.
I am confident that each blog post, ink-filled page, and scribbled journal notes moves me along the path to becoming a more confident writer. My writing may not reflect Sprezzatura, yet. But I am certain that as long as I don't let my censor halt my effortful pursuit, I will achieve the appearance of effortlessness and one day create worlds for others to get lost in, instead of me just feeling lost.